Monday, August 6, 2018

Monday musings

in which our plucky heroine struggles with despair...

I remember when I was a young woman, and it felt like the world was in terrible danger, but there was also an undercurrent of hope that things could be changed for the better, if we all could only figure out how, and could all do what needed to be done... None of the current young people I talk to feel that way any more, either do any of the older ones, or the elders, or the old old people who were alive during WW2. Indeed, there is so much gone wrong now in so many different ways that sometimes it is all I can do to keep upright and still standing.



Yesterday I started reading this article, which only confirmed my perceptions, and filled me with grief. We could have shifted things, but somehow it all went wrong. Sometimes I don't know how to continue, but I keep on anyway, doing the best I can to live a life that makes sense, that is thoughtful and kind, that brings beauty and creativity to the center, that uses as close to a sensible amount of the resources we all share...

It may make no difference in the end, but it makes a difference to me. Every once in a while I get a glimpse of where the choices I make have made a tiny butterfly wingflap of effect in the life of another person. Not huge, but enough to go on with...

Just finished reading this short essay by a preschool teacher, whose wise words were a bit of an anodyne against the despair.
I have purposefully made a decision more than once in my life to choose to live, during hinge moments when there was an obvious alternative. Not going to go back on that decision. Going to make the best I can of the life I have been creating, in the times I have been given to live in.


8 comments:

  1. FWIW, I so look forward to your postings. You are thought-full and such a wonderful alternative voice in our world. As well, I am awed by your creativity and skills in areas like metal-working. I smile at anecdotes about the chickens and attempt to emulate some of your gardening choices out here in Beaverton.

    It is so easy to succumb to despair in this current environment. But, as you say, we can only live our own lives to the best of our ability, trusting that our choices make an impact somewhere and for someone.

    While I keep up with what's going on in the world - mostly - I find that I immerse myself more in sewing/knitting/weaving, as well as sports and detective books from the libe for escape. And I've dived head-first into genealogy!!

    Hoping the winds will lift your wings. And cool us, too!

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    1. Thank you Joyce... I am glad that my writing, originally started simply as a way for me to keep track of what I am doing (I call my blog my auxiliary brain, which is why I also tag-index each post) has also allowed me to connect with online friends both near and far

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  2. Both links go to the same place I think.
    Some things are better (women's rights, recognition for LGBT persons, you tube videos on how to hread my sewing machine) and other things are worse.
    Trump, Brexit and terrorism scare me, though the terrorists of my childhood/teenage years/twenties were Irish and the ones of my 40s are fundamentalist islamists.
    I find joy in small things, a kind word, a loving friend, great music, creative endeavours, a job well done, a team built and waking up the next morning to another sunrise.

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    1. OOps, thank you for calling my error in linkage, I will fix that posthaste. Indeed, there is much improved since my youth, and I, like you, do my best to focus on the small joys in life, which come along as often as we each and all pay attention to them...

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  3. Focus on the good, do what you can where you are able and let the rest go. Sounds like copping out but it’s necessary self-preservation. I rarely even glance at the news these days and I Do Not Miss It. Important stuff still filters through but I don’t make myself crazy with all the things beyond my control. Wishing you sweet calm healing thoughts, Alison!

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    1. Thank you Louisa... It is a delicate balance between staying aware enough of the larger picture to be able to make good choices and stay reasonably safe, and to not get overwhelmed and remain functional. I have not actively watched the *news* for years, but get enough input on social media to keep current...

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  4. Your focus "on the small joys of life..." is key to surviving this period (or should I say this comma) in current affairs. As you say, "to pay attention to them" is essential; to offer gratitude for them is also essential, in my view. Look for the beautiful things that people do, such as the young man who welcomed an autistic boy to help him stock the shelves in the store where he worked. Such behavior is heart warming, as is the fact that people all over the world have donated over $100,000 for the young man's education. People are aching for goodness.

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    1. I so agree... I do practice gratitude every day, though I don't always write about it, it is part of how I stay functional. At night before I go to sleep, I think about what I saw or felt or noticed or read about that was good and beautiful and kindly in the world...

      "yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift, that's why it's called the present..."

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