Wednesday, November 9, 2016

whistling in the dark


An analogy: Right now I feel inside about like I did in 2011, when I got the call from my then doctor that results were not benign, but a probable indication of cancer... Irrespective of whatever came next, my life was changed forever and though there are ways to (possibly) survive, there will be damage done that can never be healed, but only learned to live with. With good fortune, survival may be possible, but at great cost irregardless. No way around it but through. Our plucky heroine was both determined and fortunate* to still be here writing and creating... my strongest hope is that we, the nation, and the world will also find a pathway forward... I am grieving for all that will be lost in finding that pathway, just as I grieve incessantly for all that cancer took from me...

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  1. Yes probably a worse feeling than when the UK Brexit vote came though and the majority had voted to leave, though maybe similar.

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    1. There are many here that are drawing that parallel... Not sure how to move forward this point, but I know that the most radical thing I can do is to continue to live, to stay here, to do whatever small individual things are possible to continue to create the world I do want to live in, where everyone has a place and enough...

      "Ohana means family. Family means nobody gets left behind.... or forgotten."

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    2. I've chosen not to discuss the Brexit vote with friends or family, as some voted one way, some the other and it is a huge minefield. One colleague and his wife voted opposite ways, though I don't know which was which etc. I felt rather like I had been punched or kicked in the stomach - hard. After a while the pain lessens a bit, but I suppose I have to accept that I live in a democracy, which I believe in, and within that democracy there are people who hold views I don't agree with. Here I think there was a big group of people who didn't really want to leave Europe, they just wanted to put two fingers up at the establishment and that was an opportunity to do so.

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    3. OH Ruthie, I know how hard that can be... in my family, we have people on both sides of the political divide, and have finally reached a point where we simply do not discuss politics at all, as there were some very ugly scenes in the past.

      My take on the results of the election here, based on what I have seen of maps of how the voting played out, is that there are many parts of the country that feel entirely disenfranchised, where their situations are so bad that any change from how things are usually done is seen as a chance for things to improve. Indeed the USA is so very large, and the different parts of the country are so very very different from one another that it is almost like a conglomeration of several countries stuck together.

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  2. Today is a hard day. I think many of us will need to mourn a bit, but I'm also hearing from many friends that they're already looking forward and starting to think of ways to make things better. One friend is even considering running for office! So we will move forward somehow.

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    1. I am pleased to hear that some friends of yours are being able to move beyond despair. I am not so much mourning that Hilary lost, as I am mourning, among other things, the upcoming loss of things like health care for myself and various friends of mine, (and of course all the people I don't know in the same situation) because the coverage and medications are all that keep many of us alive. As a cancer survivor, I am uninsurable.

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  3. IMHO, very humble, a great wrong has been done to the USA. Though I'm not a bible quoting person, I continue to paraphrase, "Lord, bless them, for they knew not what they did". That is all.

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    1. Thank you... This is not the world I want to live in, but it is the world I still do.

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  4. We are watching from across the border in the Great White North and wondering what on earth has happened. A new dawn, that is for sure.

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    1. Thank you for your concern... many of us here are also wondering the same thing!

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